I'm blessed to have carried that baby even if it was for a short time. My heart still hurts thinking about losing him/her. I think of that baby often and how drastically my life was impacted by someone that never breathed a breath on Earth. I am sometimes saddened by the loss. But I am also so thankful. Without that loss, I wouldn't be holding Olivia right now. And now, Olivia has a special Gurdian Angel watching over her.
Yesterday I overheard Matt and Olivia having a "conversation." I wish I could have captured it on video. Those are the moments I want to cherish forever. My two loves getting to know each other...so sweet.
Olivia is the light of my life. Her gummy smile makes my heart soar. Yesterday she rolled for the first time! She needed a little help getting her arm in the right position but she's close to figuring it out on her own. When she was first born, I wanted her to stay little forever. People told me every stage gets better and better. And boy were thery right. She's starting to show her personality and it's so fun watching her figure out this great big world.
Olivia learning to play-discovering colors, patterns, animals, and music
Laying in Mom and Dad's bed.
I think Maci really loves "her" baby.
Matt's favorite time of day. Coming home from work and snuggling with his little girl.
There's no better way to wake up in the morning.
So even though today is sad because of the loss of our first baby, I am so full of joy because it brought me here...a life with Olivia.
Happy 1st Birthday to my special Angel!
